Hello my peeps, long time no see, huh?
I really hope this blog post finds you all well...
I've been out of the loop for a few months now, trying to hide out, in the vain hope that no-one notices I am gone.
But I got rumbled, BIG TIME.
For that, I thank you all. The constant emails (they wern't bounced...I got them ALL, never fear!) and messages of support has reassured my inner Princess that she IS important and that she needs to stop being so petulant and selfish.
The reasons for my absence are many and very complicated, but the THING that kicked it all off was the news that my beloved Husbeast was finally losing his job. A job he's held for 15 years, with the same company. It'd been on the cards for 3 years, "restructuring due to funding cuts" and suddenly it was really happening. We felt like the ground had disappeared from beneath us, and we still feel like that now. This HUGE thing finally robbed me, on a personal level, of my ability to cope with any form of responsibility, and ultimately enthusiasm for my work.
Add to the mix a pre-teen who is a male version of me, fear for my family's future and an assinine reluctance to admit there is anything wrong (insert "LaLaLa I am not listening" here) and you have the last 4 months of my life in a nutshell.
You'd think the prospect of Husbeasts' impending redundancy would spur me on to build on Babylonglegs' success, but it didn't. Any semblence of confidence, self belief and self esteem disappeared into the ether.
I have buried myself deep in denial, and have withdrawn from everything... just ask any of my friends if they have spoken to me lately, and you'll get "Sarah Who" *cackles* I have even lost interest in my knitting and spinning.
MoJo well and truly "Gone Fishing"....
But hopefully, this is all about to change. I need to get out of this empty abyss and start being productive again. I am just going to dive right in and start dyeing again, and not set myself too many goals. Keep things fresh and non-repetitive so that my MoJo reclaims its rightful place again.
So... gone are repeatables.
I dye it...if you like it, you buy it.